Modify or Quit

Being a teacher, I know about modified curriculum. I know why modifications are made. I know that they are intended to help the person become successful. So, why is it so hard to allow Bethany to modify my workouts? I know that it needs to be done because I keep hurting myself.

I really want to do the things she asks me to do, you know, the way the other campers do, but my body just will not allow me to do it. In my head, I can do it. My legs tell a different story. I want to do it (most of the time).

I am forced to face the fact that my body is not ready to respond. So I have to make a decision: Do I go with the modifications or do I quit? I have seriously thought about both and have made a decision. A hard decision. One that will require me to admit that I am not ready and require me to swallow my pride. One that some people will not fully understand, but one that most will support.

You see, I am not the same person that I was on January 17, 2014. That Kristy Stuart could not do a jumping jack or a sit up...this Kristy Stuart can. The Kristy from January would have quit after the first injury...this Kristy is dealing with the third injury. So...

I am not a quitter. I have to keep going. I will swallow my pride and continue to train because I cannot catch Crystal yet, but I am still coming! Seriously, God is using this to get rid of tons of junk that I have stored up and as much as the physical part of this hurts sometimes, working through the mental part of this is what is making me healthy. I am tough...I am strong...I am able...I am a Gladiator!

Be blessed!