Pride and Perspective

Well, it would appear that I have let some negative comments creep in and steal my joy. I have had more than one person imply or directly say that I was wasting my time with the whole get fit thing. I let those words take root and alter my course. I believed the lies that were spoken over me and I am not happy about it.

This year has been full of success for me. My success does not look the same as others, but it is success. The year 2014 started the way so many others have: full of family, food, and poor health. No hope for anything different. Fourteen days into the new year, I had a conversation that changed everything. God set my feet on this path and He did it on purpose so that I would be able to fulfill His purpose in my life. Eleven months later, I weigh 53 pound less. I lost this weight without the aid of the lap-band and without fad diets. I know that I HAVE WORKED HARD. I see this as a success.

See, 2014 changed everything about me. I became an active participant in my life again. I enjoyed activities with my family that I never thought possible. I became a better wife, mom, daughter, and friend. To let angry, jealous people ruin that would be plain stupid. I cannot change their hearts, but God can. I can only be responsible for me. This is where the pride things comes in...

I DO NOT like to break down in front of people. I do not enjoy allowing others to see me struggle. I certainly do not like to have to modify the exercises at camp (I want to do what everyone else does). That is a pride issue and something that God is working on. I let my insecurities get the best of me I let what I think other people think control me. I cannot continue to do this. I know that I know that I know the people I workout with could care less that I have to modify. I know that they don't think any less of me when the workout is hard for me and I get emotional. I know that they care about me. It all boils down to a choice, just like Bethany said, I have to make a choice...and I have. I CHOOSE ME.

I choose to move ahead on my journey. I choose to make myself vulnerable in front of other people. I choose to ignore the people that say I cannot do this and that I am not worth it. I serve a big God and He does big things and I cannot wait to see what He does next.

Be blessed!