Whew! What a Ride

This journey is like riding a roller coaster...up, down, up, down. So many of my struggles are associated with the mental part of being healthy. I get in my own way. I would guess that this is why Bethany's favorite thing to say to me is "Get out of your head and do this." She knows.

I have discovered it is not easy to stay committed to a fitness plan. It is not easy to drop weight (not even with a shortcut). It is not easy to figure out how to keep from hurting myself. It is not easy to stay out of my head. This has been an ongoing struggle for me.

My head thinks of all of the reasons that I should just stay home. You know, things like: it is too hot, my allergies are too bad, I will sweat too much and then need a shower,  nobody will notice that I missed. The thing is that these excuses are stumbling blocks. If I am not careful, they cause me to make steps in the wrong direction.

I do want to be fit. I do want to be healthy. I do desire to change. I spend entirely too much time "in my head" and this causes me to stumble. In my head, I hear all of the negative things that have ever been spoken over me. In my head, I doubt my ability. In my head, I second guess my goals.

I am working hard to let God control what goes on in my head. I try to be as positive as possible. My life is not easy and I am not always as successful at the be positive thing as I would like to be, but I would not want to live any other life. God set my feet on this path. He know how He will use my struggles to create victory in my life and the lives of the people around me. He has placed some amazing women around me...not just at boot camp, but at work and church too. He is faithful and I am grateful.

My goals are big and sometimes they seem impossible. I will get there one step at a time. My desire to change is greater than my desire to stay the same (this is another of Bethany's favorite things to say).

I appreciate the encouragement that I get from you. I ask that you continue to encourage me as I continue this journey and I ask that you remember me in your prayers. I can do this! 13.1 miles is less than 10 miles away!

Be blessed!