Crab Walks Make Me Crabby

I tried to do a crab walk today. My body didn't want to and that made me mad. As a matter of fact, that stupid little exercise caused me to think about a bunch of things that have been making me crabby. I am still an emotional eater.  As much as I would like to think that I have conquered that, I have not even come close. Now, I am in an interesting place...exercise brings out all kinds of emotions and my first instinct is to run to food for comfort.

Yes, I realize that is not what I am supposed to do and a lecture about it will only add to the stress and well, you know, more food. Spring has always been an interesting time of the year for me. The trees start to bloom and my allergies and asthma go crazy. The temperature goes up and my migraines return. So, this outside exercise thing is hard for me.

Folks keep asking me if I am okay and I can answer yes and no. What's wrong? Well, here is an abbreviated list of the things I am dealing with:

1. There are several people in our family that are in poor health
2. Our youngest niece got hurt playing softball
3. The school year is coming to an end
4. Bryan is starting to go through puberty and is not behaving the way I would like for him to
5. We have chickens in our bathroom
6. My allergies and asthma are acting up
7. I feel insecure about changing
8. I cannot sleep
9. My back is hurt
10. Affordable healthcare is not so affordable

There is so much more that I could add. I have to deal with all of it. I would love to be able to replace the emotional eating with exercise and I am trying, but it is so hard. I am a creature of habit. I like for things to be comfortable and easy...and this life change I am trying to make is anything but comfortable and easy. You might say I am my own worst enemy when it comes to getting in the way. I left so much junk on the foam glow course, but I didn't leave it all. And now, I am faced with taking all of this on.

I have to remember that I am not in this alone. I have to learn to trust myself to make wise choices. I have to get out of my head and focus on the fit person inside of me. I have to do this for myself first. I cannot worry about what others think and I have to get my feelings off of my sleeves. It is hard enough to do this and even harder if I choose to have hurt feelings.

One day at a time...be blessed