I was doing lunges across the width of the football field and had a million things running through my mind. Most of them were negative. Things like:
You can't do this. What do you think you are doing? Girl, you are too big for this. You should be at home on the couch watching TV. These people are going to laugh at you. You need to hurry up, the other girls don't want to be here all day.This had been happening during the entire workout...every time I was ready to believe one of these lies, someone would say something to me. "You have to believe in yourself." "Get out of your head." "Block everything out and do this." And you know what else happened this time...almost everyone was still there when I crossed the finish line.
Scott (my husband) and I were talking about the girls being there when I finished. He said that people like that are going to be the reason that I keep going. I think he is right. Support is the key. I know that when I go to work out that I will not be alone at the finish line...at least Bethany will be there. I will freely admit that it was nice to have people cheer me on and push me to go harder and faster than I thought I could.
I have spent a majority of my life believing the lies I have been told. I have thought that I can't do things because I am too big. Truth is, I can do it and I am doing it. It is not easy. It is not comfortable. If I am honest about it, it scares me. But, I can do it.
On April 12th, I am going to do a 5k. Something I have said before, but didn't follow through. I didn't have a support system in place. I do now. I would love to see my friends at the finish line, but I am not doing it for them. I am doing it for me...and to prove that all of the lies I have believed are not true!
If I can do it, so can you. One day at a time. I believe in you!
Be blessed!
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