I have been working out for a little over a month. It is hard to believe, but it is true. I have really struggled and not everyday is fun, but Bethany tells me that the crying part of this is good for me. My self confidence is a little better, but I still doubt myself. I can see changes now. Other people have said that my body is changing, but I just started to really see it.
I did not measure myself in the beginning, I didn't even think about it. I know that I have lost inches because my Camp Gladiator (cg) shirt is an XL and it fits me now. Funny story associated with the shirt...it will give you a little more insight into the kind of person Bethany is. I ordered a XXL and she wouldn't let me have one. She told me to get an XL out of the box and shrink into it. So, that's what I did. Now, I wear that cg shirt with pride. It touches me, but it is not so bad!
My mindset is slowly changing. I no longer call myself a fat girl. I try hard to not joke about my weight (this is hard, because I did it all of the time). I have worked hard to stop telling people that I can't do something. As a matter of fact, I try it all. This morning I was asked to try to do a push-up with the hand clap afterwards (I can't remember what it is called). The board said I had to do 10, so I set out to try to do all of them. I was scared that I would bust my nose, but I didn't. One, clap. Two, clap. Three, ouch. The third time, I landed on my forearms and hurt myself. I had to look Bethany in the eye and tell her I was hurt. Nothing serious. She assessed it and gave me an alternative exercise. I had to avoid anything that used my shoulders for a little bit, but tonight I am better.
I never dreamed that working out and laughing went together. They do. Most of the time, I really enjoy working out and I LOVE the encouragement from the other Gladiators (that is what we are called when we are at camp). It seems funny to think that I get called a Gladiator, but I own it because I am tough!
The weight loss has been slower than I thought. It actually went up before it went down. In December, I weighed two hundred seventy-nine pounds. I have lost nine and four tenths pounds. How do you like the way I spelled it out! Ha! Nearly ten pounds. I dropped nearly ten pounds. I am happy with it, I worked hard for it.
Let me finish with this. I would have never dreamed that I would be working out. I would have told you it was not possible. I was too big.I am not worth the effort. My back was bad. My asthma is bad. I don't have time. Well, all of that is not true. I now say, I have workout tonight. I can do it. I am worth it. I missed last night, I better get up and go at 5 am. I will try. Hey, can we do that again? That was fun. Big change, huh?
You are able too. You are amazing. God will meet you on that exercise mat. You just have to have the courage to get up and do it. You are not too old, too fat, too out of shape. You are amazing and I believe in you!
If you are interested in working out and need a place to go, try Camp Gladiator. Google them. You can come with me and I will workout with you. No judgement, only encouragement!
Be blessed!
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